happy happy hypo

small hypo last night resulting in being completly and utterly awake until gone 7 in the morning.

im in a very cheery mood today, yay.

lah lah lah lah di dah.

The excitement of the day.

was that i got my lip pierced, which surprizingly didnt hurt!"

i didnt look at the needle thou.

they made it numb first to which may be y it didnt hurt!"

oh well im happy, and the numbing stuff tastes like bannana. mmmmmmmmmmmm YUM YUM!"

Today..................

i realized many things, number
1. i hated kfc and it was a good thing to have quit i spoke to my mum and all is good.

2. Godd friends make a day go much quicker and can help u get work done and cheer you up.

3. Even if someone is far aware they can still talk to u on the fone and make u giggle ans smile and be happy when things arent quite as you would like them to be.

ALL in ALL todays been surprizingly good!"

QUIT JOB

I dont know what im going to do now but i truelly have had enogh of people who wont lisen when i say i cant work then as i have uni, or ive been here since 9 i finish at 4 its now 6 ive had no break no i wont stay till 11 sorry.

ergghhh

:(

http://www.mentalhealth-world.org.uk/forums/

DISAPOINTMENT

is something i really cant deal with.

and i hate liers.

i hate my house mates and i hate portsmouth.

i want my mum, i want my old home and i want to see the sea.


i hate kfc too.

but i love one thing that seems to just wind me up.

spencers bk today!"

yay!"

cant wait!"

iv missed him loads!" hate it wen hes gone things have been abit edgy last copule of days!"

things arent great at home, tend to keep that to myself.

spencer <3

:)

teeth cleaning ocd

Just a quick drawing, think it somes up very well me.

I have this weird obsession with cleaning my teeth. If i had my way id take my toothbrush everywhere, it gets worse when im hyper or nervous. I am constantly paranoid that my mouth is dirty. At one point i was cleaning them about 15 times a day minimum when i was back home, this has cut down but i still have a bit of thing about it.

dealing with bipolar

i think the worst thing about having bipolar is the lows, you can cope with the his but the lows are bad bad things. The feeling of worthlessness isnt very nice. But then when your hyper people just thibk ur being an idiot!"

i dont like them much. they make me feel sad.

Between 10 and 20% of people with bipolar disorder will take their own life. Up to a third will make a suicide attempt, and i am not to be one of them!" i have a amazing boyfriend who i love to bits and i can get threw those bad times!"

i think the main thing is people need to just understan what its like sometimes, its a very comman misconception that we are either happy or sad but sometimes your neither either or, your heads just mashed with emotions.

It is hard when doctors who dont reallyunderstand or care just want to wack u on medicatio like that will instantly cure it. Also the misconceprtion that i can be treated with anti depressants is a bad one, as this can often make it woese, it can be treated with mood stabilisers but this should not be an instant cure and wont be for that matter.

http://www.bipolaraware.co.uk/

Hansel and Gretel.

Nicolas Di Genova.

Nicholas Di Genova has to be one of my most favourite artists, this is a guy who inspires so much of my work. Anyone who is interested in animals and combining more than one animal together should take a look.

www.mediumphobic.com

NEW TO ALL OF THIS

Well i supose im new to all of this........

Im Posy,

more than anything i like to draw and lisen to music thats what makes me happy. :)